Archive for September, 2007
An Introduction to Madness…
You are not dreaming. It’s familiar…isn’t it? Like the return of an old friend who you lost, but never quite understood why…
You walk upon the cracks of the same old sidewalks and city streets. Avoiding people, but colliding nonetheless. If not shoulders, swarms of pheromones, electrons, and electromagnetic energies converge as each strange face pushes through the mass. And then above the crowd, above the chaos of organized society, you see that familiar face.
It’s different. Quieter. Longer. More tired. But it is that face. But they were dead…you watched them die. No, not in your arms, but within your mind you recreated their demise a million ways–each time hoping that with their last breath they thought about you. You cannot escape that nightmare.
And just like that…the face slips back into the herd, marching forward for business…or was it pleasure? Or was it nothing more than to haunt you once again? You force yourself through people disconcerned, this time it is not the unseen that collides, but assuredly every part of your physical existence. You fight, and fight…and you soon find yourself alone. Alone with a million people. And no one is familiar.
But you saw that face… Did they smile back at you? Did they recognize you? It was them, you know it. The realization that everyone dies begins to retake its claim to your mind, to your heart. No one returns. You look up into the sky–finding God in between the towers of civilization that disrupt your view. And He tells you…no one dies…no one ever dies. They live in the ones that loved them.
And you loved her. And she is not dead. She will never die again. But I will…and when I do…will anyone ever think they saw that face again..? Or will that die with me, too…